So Father's Day is coming up the day after tomorrow! I know I'm early but I've been thinking about it a lot for the last few days and want to jot a few things down while it's fresh in my mind. Sunday I am looking forward to spending the day with a lot of family and having everyone be extra nice to me! However I did take some time to reflect back on my life before I was a father and as I think about it I feel like I should be celebrating my sons this Sunday.
On Father's Day Leyton will be a little over three and a half years old and Ryder will be a little over two and a half years old. I feel like I found new purpose in life when my sons were born, first with Leyton and then more a year later when Ryder was born. 27 days before Leyton came into this world I took my last drink of alcohol! Since my sons have been born I have found a new sense of importance in how I take care of myself physically and subsequently have lost 50 pounds in the last year. I guess what happened was that I grew to love those boys so much that the thought of them growing up with a dad who drinks too much was more than I could bear. The thought of them having to go through life without a dad to chase them around the yard, or play catch with or play basketball with or even worse not have me around at all because I didn't take care of myself physically was too much for me. So I kicked a very tough addiction to alcohol and I started taking better care of myself. I have a much deeper understanding and love for my Heavenly Father and His love for me now that I know how it feels to have sons. I take my career more seriously and work harder and with more purpose than I ever had before. You see I love being a dad to Leyton and Ryder so much that I want to be the best I can be in every way so that I can provide, financially, for them and so that I can be the best role model of a man that I can be. I want to show them how a man is supposed to love Jesus and a wife, FOREVER. I want to provide physical and spiritual protection for them and be around for a long time to see their children and their grandchildren grow up. Being a dad is no easy task but it's one that I gladly take on and take very seriously. When my sons were born I realized what my "purpose" was in life and that was to be the best father I could be to Leyton and Ryder and any other children that God might bless Anna and I with. I don't know if there's a role I love more in life than the role of being dad. I am very lucky that I get to drop them off at Day Care once in a while and pick them up almost every day. There is no better feeling than when they see me walk in after being at work all day and hearing "daaaaaaddddyyyyyy!" and having two little boys run over for a hug. For me it doesn't get better. Getting to watch them grow and develop and learn new things every day with mine and Anna's guidance is awesome. Unsolicited "I love you daddy's" unseen punches in the stomach, cuddling on the couch at the end of the night and teachable moments fill me up and make me feel so blessed to be the dad of those two perfect little boys.
So on this Father's day I really should be celebrating Leyton James and Ryder Scott Brillhart because they have made me a much better man than I ever was without them!
Nice post. You're a great Dad
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